Love Note

I wish to tell you so much
but in this short time I have
I doubt I will be able to tell you it all...


It goes without saying you are the one person who has meant a insurmountable amount of anything to me. There is no one in the entirety of this earth who will equal what you are. You are the one thing in my life I am proud of. You are the person I never thought I'd know. I suppose nothing I say here will take you by surprise, but I just want to tell you. I know there are things you keep locked away inside of you, and I have also come to expect that I will not know everything you are pondering. Yet I can accept that, because I can accept you.

There were times when doubt flooded my mind, and nothing you said made sense. There were times where I felt alone and left out, there were times when I thought we were never coming back. But you proved me wrong each time. You showed me again and again that you were always there. You held the flashlight and guided me down the dark path, into the field filled with moonlight. You helped me see who you and I were and how we could be more than I ever thought. You, led me strait into your arms, and that is where I stayed.

Letting go of myself through out relationship, was a mistake I do not know how I lost her. I suppose she died. To blame that on you is wrong, for I know that it was not your fault. I suppose my feelings about things have changed with me, and though it may seem have become this way because of us, I would like to inform you that I personally do not believe such things. Yet It is not up to me to tell you what to believe. I just want you to know, my sadness is not necessarily any of your doing, and to be honest I wish I knew what it was that made me this way. Perhaps I will find out soon, but until then please don't carry this as a burden.

I have managed, in our time together, to learn to trust. I know that I still need some practice, but you are helping me to learn. As well I know that I have learned to hurt you. Not on prpose though, I still hvae caused you much pain. It was never my intetion to put you through such things and I apologise whole heartedly. I hope you know I never ment to make you cry. Ever.

Though my time is short I just wanted to tell you what you are, and you are the one I love. The one I will forever care for. No matter our status... I love you, and nothing can change that...

Pantoon

Here is your destiny
silent and alone,
like you always are,
but they don't know

Silent and alone,
the sweet lovable girl
but they don't know
your sadness

The sweet lovable girl
riddled with scars
your sadness
a mask of smiles

Riddled with scars,
you lie to protect
with a mask of smiles
you stay hidden from all

You lie to protect
like you always will
stay hidden from all
Here is your destiny

Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2009