明日のための歌

The sun is warm against my face,
the breeze gently blowing,
my hair side to side,
my hands together,
as I make a wish to see you again,
to feel you hand in mine,
to be together, please,
just one more time,

I can't be still now,
the thought of you makes me move,
I want to run, run far and fast,
into your arms, through a field of
flowers surrounded by the sun,
Though it is just a dream,
that little girls have,
a dream of a happily ever after,

Dreams of a forever in the sun, **
dreams of you and me,
let me pretend to believe,
in the love I long for,
that does not exist,
will never exists,
for it is only in love,
do we find true happiness. . .

Darkness clouds my dream,
you are gone, and so is the light,
just a white snowy field, just me,
alone again, the wind calm and quiet,
the air is thick, it's hard to breath,
warmth on my shoulder,
it's you, a smile so kind, so soft,

Tears form in my eyes,
you wipe them away,
Why so sad you ask,
there is no need for tears,
when you have love,
A love that was only a dream,
as I wake to the sun,
and again you are gone...

Dreams of a forever in the sun, **
dreams of you and me,
let me pretend to believe,
in the love I long for,
that does not exist,
will never exists,
for it is only in love,
do we find true happiness. . .

~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

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Chou

Held close, to your heart,
your arms across my body,
my head on your chest,
listening to your soft, deep breathing,
I wish for this moment never to end,

Eyes close, smile appears,
your heart beating out a rhythm,
I wish to sing to it,
a song of love, a song about us,
a song about forever,

Wind blows, a soft warm breeze,
your hair shifts with the current,
sun warm on our skin,
butterfly lands on your hand,
a sign of marital bliss?
a happily ever after?

Heart worn on my sleeve, **
be kind and careful,
as not to break it----,
for without a heart we are nothing,
without a heart love is lost,
never to be found again. . .

Only in storeys,
does one find true love and have,
a happily ever after,
but we can change that,
we can make it happen,

Just be gentle with love,
and listen to you heart's deep rhythm,
listen to the song it's playing,
become the voice
within the song. . .

Heart worn on my sleeve, **

be kind and careful,

as not to break it----,

for without a heart we are nothing,

without a heart love is lost,

never to be found again. . .

Just believe in love,

believe in me and you, believe in us,

for if you have faith in love,

you can make it last,

for an eternity----

~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

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Ame No Uta

The rain pours down,
the wind blowing strong,
yet i don't frown,
cause I think of you,
and am no longer saddened,
though is it this wrong?


The sun covered by grey,
the streets shine like silk,
there are words i need to say,
to calm my heart,
to stop the sadness,
that takes hold,
when your not near

Close my eyes, **
open my heart,
to the sun, to the sky,
feel the warmth,
of your arms, holding me close,
Please don't let go,
never let me go----

eyes open wide,
as tears flow down,
you back turned, disappearing,
into the rain,
It gets cold, tears still flow,
in a constant stream,

Is it bad,
to care so much?
to want to stay happy forever?
is it a crime to love someone?
with eyes so calm,
and a smile so kind,
is it wrong to feel this way?


Close my eyes, **

open my heart,to the sun, to the sky,feel the warmth,
of your arms,holding me close,
Please don't let go,
never let me go----

(x3)

雨は、吹く強い風注ぐけれども私は、私があなたについて考える原因眉をひそめないし、もはやそれくすんだり、しかしこの悪事であるか。 太陽覆われるによって灰色、通りは絹のように、把握を取る悲しさを停止するために私の中心を、静めるために照る私が言う必要がある単語がある、時あなたの近くない 私の目を閉めてはいけない、太陽に、空、感じに私の中心を私を近く握る暖かさ、あなたの腕の開けなさい行くために割り当ててはいけない決して私を行く許可してはいけない 目は広く開き、破損が、回った流れるように、それ得る風邪を、まだ引き裂く流れを、一定した流れで、雨に、消える、 それは悪い、そんなに気遣うためにか。幸せに永久にとどまりたいと思うためか。それは誰かを愛する罪であるか。目とそう、微笑静めればそうすれば種類、こうすればを感じることは間違っているか。 私の目を閉めてはいけない、太陽に、空、感じに私の中心を私を近く握る暖かさ、あなたの腕の開けなさい行くために割り当ててはいけない決して私を行く許可してはいけない




~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~
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Bound

Do you ever feel like everything you do doesn't matter? You work so hard and nobody seems to notice or care, if all your screams go unheard? I don't know if you ever feel this way but I certainly do. It's like one day this person is your best friend and then the next it's like they have never met you. Or they talk to you one day and when you go to talk to them again, they look at you like your some stupid piece of crap and then continue talking to whom ever they were before. It's really sad to see that happen to anyone let alone yourself. Sometimes i get the feeling like the only one i can talk to it my boyfriend and then again sometimes it even feels like he gets annoyed with me. I don't know if I am just being really paranoid or if it's true. I don't really know why I feel this way and it's really annoying. It sometimes feel like i am tied down by the world, as if there is just so much reliability or expectation for you to do well in something or to even just do something, it never seems to stop. It's like everyone just keeps piling expectation upon expectation until you are buried alive and can't escape them. What are you supposed to do? Who can you lean on when the only person you have can't be there all the time? What do you do?



~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Steam

Summer is coming!! yay! It seems as though we have skipped a whole season! which would be spring! yay! don't really miss the cool damp season. It's nice to finally have warm weather and see the grass! Unfortunately there is still some snow , but very little. (which is a good thing) hmm summer is by far the best time of year, it's hot, fun, and sexy, (heh heh) Bikinis and beaches and sun screen and tanning and swimming... mmmm I can't wait! Of course i am gunna work like crazy cause then i will have money to spend this summer! which will kinda suck cause, well, I will be working for most of my summer! yay >______<> Lets hope this summer is filled with many fun adventures!

~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Crunch

Ahhh! It's crunch time, it's almost mid-terms and the work load is getting crazy! UHHG so much stress it's hard to function! I become so moody and bitchy and talk about lazy, I really do not want to work I mean I hate hard long essays and assignments, the worst thing, is even if I do finish my work, I still feel stressed and moody, like wide mood swings much! So now I am afraid of annoying people and/or making them mad at me, especially the one I love, I really don't want to hurt him in any way, or any or my friends. So what am I supposed to do? Alcohol? Drugs? No cause then people think badly of you then to! Maybe I should try yoga or something, maybe Tai Chi? any suggestions? 0______0?? I just really hope I don't push any one away.


~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Hello Independence

It's scary to think that next year is our last year to live freely, then it's off to College and or University. Scary thought really, it kinda makes you think about how much your gonna have to change the way you live so you can survive outside of your house by yourself, or maybe with a few friends. You have to grow up fast. There are so many more responsibilities involved, for example buying your own groceries, paying the rent, buying clothes and things cause you need them, all these things we do but now we have to do them, and with no help from rents! It's gonna be weird but I think it will be OK, I mean out on our own, of course there are good things that come with this, like going out until when ever you want to, (of course focusing on school is a must) and doing what ever you want (boys can sleep over) and chilling with friends 24/7 that could be fun! I kinda can't wait!

~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Kowaii

I'm scared. Scared to loose you, scared to see you leave, I'm scared to watch you turn around and leave me alone. My dreams have been haunted with these visions of you not being with me! I know you say I will never leave but I'm scared I may drive you away, you may lose interest, to get bored because I know it's not easy to see each other, i know it is, it's hard for me to, hard to not see you as often as I would like , but we can cope, I know we can. You know how much you mean to me, you know how much I care for you, I just really hope you remember that. I am always here for you no matter what, I love you.


~Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki~

Sleepless Nights

Do you ever have those nights where there is just so much on your mind that you can't sleep? Or those nights where you do get to sleep but your dreams are filled with all the things you were thinking about? Well those nights suck, especially when you have to get up early the next day! Kinda stressful, but we deal with it right? Since most people have these nights we can understand when they are tired and/or stressed, but sometimes it helps to tell people about your issues or problems, and especially when that person wants to help you with your problems, what ever it may be. Sometimes when you trust that person maybe it would be best to tell them or at least give them the just about your problems so that they can at least understand your sadness so that they don't have to sit there constantly asking you about it or really worrying. Just know that even though you are sad and miserable, the people around you are like that as well because they are worrying about you.

~Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki~

Decisions

Decisions, decisions. . . Our whole like we are forced to make decisions. The one that is coming up is whether to go to University or College. Now I have pretty much decided which one I am going to, but some people haven't and it's a big decision, i agree. But what i don't get it some people think that just because you don't go to University it's the end of the world. Parents put so much pressure on you to go to university it's rather pathetic, just like all the hype to get into one, i mean it's soo expensive, who can afford to for 3 friggen years and pay more that 15 grand each year! WTF! do you think the f***in world is made of money! Just to go to school and half the time you don't even use what you learn! Like the school needs that much money ANYWAY!! College is like that to, and the thing about college is that people think you don't have to be that smart to go to college and only smart people go to uni, well let me tell you there are some dumb people in both! Jeez people come on! Lets think, so maybe in todays society with a university degree you go further, well thats f***ed up. College is practically the same thing! My god people. You can still get a good paying job with a college degree, and it doesn't mean you are not smart enough for university!

~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Lost

I'm kinda lost in the world right now. I am just really lost in what is happening. It seems so different from when we were 3,5,6 even 12. It was as though no one cared about what we looked like, what we wore, what our hair was like, no one cared. The world seemed safe and unchanged. It seemed as though everyone was friends it didn't matter who you were or what you looked like, we were all just a big group of friends who played tag and had sleepovers and made sand castles. We sat in the school yard and traded Pokemon cards, but now it's like a constant battle between people for, well, I am not sure what. Maybe "popularity" or who bought that shirt first or who wears it better. Who has a better boyfriend than who, who has more brand name clothes/bags/shoes etc. . . and i don't want to sound like I don't do this, cause I do, but it's kind of weird how we have changed, I suppose its just part of growing up and nothing ever stays the same, so I guess this is just normal. Another thing that i notice nowadays that there are alot of creepy people out there. I notice now that i watch the news and hear storeys that alot of bad, scary stuff is happening. Before when we were little we never heard about theses things,we never knew about all the bad stuff that was happening, or we never really understood/cared, but now we think about it and it affects us. And appearance has changed alot to. Some girls dress rather revealing and boys wear their pants half way down their ass, and not to sound like a parent but I mean it isn't that cool guys, no offence. And girls jeez there is such a thing as a too low cut shirt, there is such a thing as showing tooo much cleavage! I mean i think most girls have all worn some really revealing things, and i know it's to get the attention of the boys, but i mean don't we have any dignity?


~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Silent Tears

A Promise is a promise right? I guess not. . . When we make the vow and say yea friends! And it's the best thing ever and for the time being it was so much fun! We promised to always be there for each other, chicks over dicks right!? well just as I get a boy friends you all just block me out!? I really don't understand? I understand the whole PDA factor but i mean we RARELY ever do that almost NEVER! Yet you decide it's still better to just chop me off the group list? Fine ok I get it sure, what ever, if thats what you think is better then so be it. I can't really do anything about that i suppose, but then when i am there and your not really talking to me and only say hi to be nice, then all of a sudden you ask em "hey why don't you hang out with us anymore?" JEE WOW I WONDER WHY!! "are you feeling left out?" YES DUH UHHG! like wake up frigg! Then you saw awww i feel so sad don't feel left out, then the next day nothing happens, it's the way it was yesterday and the day before! Nither of us have tried to fix it. I have given up, what ever, I don't really care anymore. If you guys were actual friends you wouldn't block me out.


~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Details of A Broken Mind. . .

People have a way of changing you, and it may not be noticeable. It's sometimes for the good or sometimes for the bad. It's funny sometimes how much a person changes when they are around different people. It's weird to watch some one who you know inside out go up to someone and be a completely different person. When people change just to impress someone, to me is really rather pathetic. Now I know I am being a complete hypocrite, because i know I do this to, but I have come to realize if people don't like you for who you really are then what is the point of being around them? OK i know i know this has been said over and over and over again, in fact Hannah Montana even wrote a song about it, but people still don't realize it. They still change to become liked or "accepted". I know this will probably never change, but at least I can get my opinion out there. Just next time you are with your friends and one of them goes up to another person maybe more "popular" then themselves see if they change. Also stop and listen to yourself see if you are really like the person you are portraying.


~ Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki ~

Close your eyes

Life is not ever going to be fair and we have to realize that. We can't go through life thinking that every little thing is going to work out, cause reality check, it's not! No matter how positive you are there will be a time when you realize that life has fucked you over. Now I am not saying that life is a horrible thing and to go through life pessimistic and emotional, no just know that not every thing is going to go your way and before you act think it through. Remember if ever you get fed up and tired/depressed close your eyes and focus on all the good things life has given you, all the good things you have experienced,all the people that care for you and love you, then open them and realize that this mishap is just a bump in your journey, just a little rip in the page of your book. Things can and will get better.

~Sakuranbo Kyuuketsuki~