Inept

Listlessly I walk towards you
hands cold and clammy,
rivers of makeup run down my cheeks.
Lest, I fall now.

Torn from the inside out,
I fight myself, if only to find myself again.
Sadly I don't understand what you are saying,
your words do not make sense,
or perhaps I am just inept.
You grow blurry now,
or perhaps you are just fading away,
fading like everything else,
disappearing, leaving me alone again.
Or is it merely that I am vanishing,
dissolving into the air, into nothingness.

It's colder now,
the wind has picked up,
gusts send needles into my arms,
stabbing me over and over.
it hurts.
I hurt.
It hurts to be alone.

Please see me,
please hear me,
please please please.

I need you here to catch me,
because I am falling,
and I'll close my eyes
and brace myself,
then, perhaps the fall won't be so harsh,
and maybe I can pick myself up off the ground,
with my fingers intertwined with yours.

Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2009