Grace

Love...
thanks for giving me a second chance!
I promise promise p r o m i s e I will not blow it!
just know that I am disappointed in my self,
for not thinking before I acted..
I never intended to do it,
nor do I intend to do it again,

I know that it brings back pain,
and I know that disappointment follows,
thank you for bestowing trust in me,
though I know I have betrayed it,
I never ever meant to,
impulse is a curse which haunts me,
to break your trust was the worst thing I have done,
and I am truly sorry,
forgive my rashness,
just know that I promise,deeply, truly, promise,
to never disobey you again.


The things in which I inflicted upon myself,
were never meant to be seen,
in fact it should have never occurred,
but I lost composure,
things blurred, nothing was right anymore,
right and wrong were indistinguishable,
there was nothing but me and a blade,
in which seemed to shine,
it was as though it called to me,
"It's alright, I can help make it better, don't you want that?"
yes, yes that is what I want,
my mind seemed to decide for itself,
the next thing I knew,
there were marks upon my skin,

How stupid was I?
it did not make me feel better,
there was just more pain,
and then more,
to understand why is an unattainable goal,
for I myself don't see the answer,

You,
you have forgiven me,
you have given me a final grace,
one last chance to redeem myself,
how? for a stupid mistake could have cost so much,
but you let me in once more,
your love is still there?
Why must I be so arrogant,
why couldn't i have seen the wrongness?
I truly love you, yet I betrayed your words,
betrayed my self,
and for that I am truly sorry,
but your kind heart has bestowed,
that trust within me, once more,
and for that,
I wish to truly say;

Thank you


Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2008