Forever

Cover them up.
They belong to you and no one else.
They are your dark secret.
Yours and yours alone.

Alone.
that word brings tears to your eyes.
It hurts to hear it.
you hate it,
but yet you can't escape it.
No.
You can't run from it.
It follows you every where.
It lurks in the shadows of your mind.
It stalks you,
it binds you to the pain.

These days are ripping holes into your soul.
With each passing one you feel your self withering away.
How can you escape this?
How can you find a light in this overwhelming darkness?

Oh how you wish you could just die.
You wish to leave this vile, hurtful place.
You want to run away from here and never come back.
Oh how cruel this world is!

Everything is numb,
You can no longer feel the warmth of the sun, or the beating of your heart.
All you can feel is the cold breeze of winter, and the harsh looks from passersby.
Oh how you long to feel again!
How you yearn for the touch of another,
how you wish to just feel something, anything...
Alas! You have found your cure.
Oh yes, the one thing that helps you.
You know it's wrong, but it feels so good.
It helps you feel,
it calms you down.
It helps to stop the tears.
It satisfies you.

But you see it comes with a price.
Oh yes, and a rather painful one at that.
It may help you, but it hurts others.
Others whom have been there for you,
others who have outstretched their hands to you,
but you couldn't see them.
It can hurt you in many ways,
it can push away the ones most precious to you.

You have a plan though,
you know how to hide it.
you have it all figured out.
Be careful, watch each move you make.
Don't let them see,
don't show them who you truly are.
You know what will happen.
You know what shall follow.

Cover them up.
They belong to you and no one else.
They are your dark secret.
Yours and yours alone.
No one needs to know,
no one can take this away from you,
oh no, this is your secret,
this is your special medicine.

To bad you can't see
what it truly is,
not medicine, but poison,
which will spread and spread until it consumes you,
it may help now, but those marks,
you think they will fade, sure some will,
but they will be there forever.
They'll never leave, but isn't that what you wanted?
At least now you will never be alone,
oh no they'll be there,
always with you, they'll never leave.

Morgan.E.Doowrah
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