Consumed

Clouds fog my vision
the distorted image of the world is all I can see,
or perhaps this is what it looks like,
I can no longer tell.
I feel as though I have been consumed by the negative thoughts which plague my mind.
It's as though the very blood which courses through my body, is boiling and burning my veins.
It feels like at any moment it will burn right through my pale, weak flesh.
I need to free it.
Fear of loosing what I know, looms above me.
I tread softly as to not provoke the unknown.
I fear my frail and vulnerable heart is cracking,
it seems it may give way under this immense pressure.
It burns.
It crawls and itches.
I need to free it.
This anxiety that has seemed to call my mind home.
Burrowed deep into the nooks and cranny's of my brain.
Latching on tightly never to be removed?
Why has this come back?
How did it find me again?
I fled from it's rule, I broke it's bonds and dashed into the light.
How can it be, that it has come for me once more.
Its scratching and tearing away at me.
your trying to help, yet you don't know how.
I need you, but I need to release this tension as well.
This is the only way I know how.
I need to free it.
Stay here with me,
don't leave me alone, I need you.
Help give me strength to defeat this darkness.
Help me please...

Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2008