BLACK CAT

I don't quite know how I got here,
or why for that matter,
but I can't seem to find the answer anywhere...
I can try to think up ideas as to why this happened,
why I faltered.
But even if I do, what good would it do?
Would it even change me?|
For so long now it seems I have been stuck in this hole,
this deep, dreary, dark hole,
with no way out.
It feels as though I have been stuck here for so long that perhaps I have always been here.

When I met you,
a light fell from the clouds.
When I met you, things didn't seem as dark, the hole didn't feel so deep.
I could actually smile and laugh.
I began to feel again,
my body grew warmer and my skin grew lighter.
When I met you, all the pain and anger vanished, and in it's place, feelings I had never felt before.
But,
I have always been a black cat,
each time I get close to someone,
adn cross their path,
something horrid falls upon them.
& It was only normal for this to happen to you.
It was to be expected.
I tried to warn you, I begged you to run,
but you stayed, and you fought, and you tried to help.
You tried, and I failed.
And now your gone and I am alone,
in the darkness, where I belong.

So I have learned from the past,
and I have learned from this pain.
I knew to stay alone, but now it is crystal clear,
I deserve to be alone, for what I have done to you,
& everyone else.
I shall return to the hole, deep in the ground,
and remain far from any living thing.
I have severed most of my relationships,
and will continue to do so.
I'm sorry I crossed your path...