Feelings

I hate these feelings,
the ones that seem to take over,
the feelings of paranoia and shame,
why do they latch onto my mind,
heart and soul?
why must they badger me so?
I do not understand their motive...
why must they stifle me?
why do they continue to sustain,
I know you love me, right?
there they are again drilling questions in my mind,
"Does he love me?"
"Does he like someone else?"
"Why would he like me?"
over and over my mind fills with questions,
I don't want to ask them over and over any more,
I just want to stop them,
halt them forever, as to never evoke them again.
Is that possible, is it?
Is it possible for me to erase them?
I no longer wish to ask him these questions,
I trust him I truly do,
perhaps because I care for him so much,
I don't ever want him to leave,
I do not wish to have my heart trampled on again,
he knows this though,
I know he does,
please leave my mind,
heart and soul,
leave you terrible feelings,
and please do not return. . .

Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2008