Light no longer shines here,
it's long since faded away,
and here I sit,
dwelling on the impending frustration and pain,
that awaits me

Here I anticipate the copious amounts of stress,
the long nights and many head aches,
perhaps even the resurfacing of an old,
yet, still volatile habit.

Deep within the crevices of my mind.
these thoughts reside,
constantly stabbing and scratching,
so that they remain the focus of my attention,
they annihilate any thought that may for some reason,
attempt to break the hold,
and lighten the grip these feelings have,
upon my wandering mind.

Darkness has erased,
the colour of my world.
No longer does light,
shine upon things here.
What used to be bright and vibrant,
has become caliginous and scrofulous,
nothing makes me smile any more,
each time a thought of joyfulness,
appears in my mind,
even just a glimpse,
it is crushed into a million little pieces.

I feel so alone here,
my body is cold and clammy,
am I the only one here?
Am I the only one suffering in this,
somber, deject place?
oh how my heart aches,
with such intense pain,
that tears form and flow,
at their own will.
Alone again, alone here,
how could this happen...

Yet all at one,
a rush of warmth trickles over my skin,
and off in the distance,
my swollen, red, tired eyes can see,
a tiny shred of light.
it seems to grow,
or rather I am moving towards it,
my frail, imperfect body,
moving on it's own,
as if it were attached to a string.

There in the light,
a hand,
reaching down towards me,
slowly and cautiously,
I place mine atop, and close my eyes,
it feels warm and soft here,
I do not feel scared any more,
though I know not of where I am,
I do not feel worried.

I open my eyes,
only to see a smiling boy,
"Why do you look so sad?"
the boy says to me
No words form in my mouth,
I struggle to find the right ones to say,
"Do you feel alone? Do you feel as though there is no one whom suffers from this like you?"


I try to speak,
yet no sound follows,
just the empty movements of my mouth.
The boy smiles
"Do not feel alone, there is no need to feel lonely any longer"
His smile so genuine, so jubilant,
still holding my hand,
he pulled me close to him,
and grasped my other hand,
then softly placed his for head upon mine,
and gazed into my eyes.

It felt as though,
he could see through me,
as though,
he was looking deep into my soul,
at that very moment,
i felt my heart start to pump vigorously,
I could feel my face turning red,

With my hands,
still intertwined with his,
and our heads close together,
he closed his eyes,
and so did I,
and with out warning,
he pressed his lips on mine.
At that very moment,
all my worries, all my pain,
the horrid stabbing and scratching,
of my thoughts ceased.
All I could feel was the joyfulness,
and the happieness,
that for so long I had forgotten.

"Let me help you.
let me share your pain, let me mend your wounds,
let me love you as you have so long wished to be,
let me hold you on the nights you are cold,
let me dry your tears,
let me be the one whom shall be yours forever,
please let me be the one you love,"

I could feel the cold tears,
form behind my eyes,
I tried so hard to hold them back,
yet was unsucessful,
as they started to fall,
and touch my nose,
i looked him in the eyes,
took one last deep breath,
and quietly told him...

ok

Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2008
[I think this drones on to long so please tell me if I should cut it shorter, I would like your critisism!?! And for some strange reason it made the last part Italic, and I cannot change it... >___<]