Why?

It's a vicious cycle
and it seems so have caught me.
I don't know how to end this.
I don't know how to stop.
Can you tell me?
Because it seems to have blinded me.

Some times it's
hardest being yourself.
Somtimes it's worse to think
about what it's doing,
what I'm doing.

You call it selfish...
You tell me to think of others.
I do I really do.
Thats all I ever do...
I am not being selfish,
I never wanted any one to know.
I never wanted them to find out.

I am sorry,
I don't want to,
I am sorry,
I did it today.
This time cause I felt like it...
didn't even have a reason.
If I feel bad, I do it.
If I feel dumb, I do it.
YOU KNOW THIS! I KNOW
I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!

It's a disease,
it's and addiction,
I know you are all deepley hurt by it,
i'm sure...
but just don't concern yourself with me.
If it's to much, forget I do it.
If it hurts you that much,
ignor me.
I don't mind
I don't so it becasue of you.
I don't do it so show you.
I NEVER wanted you to know.

I'm not selfish.
I'm not selfish.
no.
Please understand I am not selfish.
Please understand I don't want anyone to ever know.
Please forget me and my mistakes.
Please can we go back to normal.
Please block me out, you'll feel better then.
You'll feel better than
I'll feel better than

Morgan Doowrah
©2008