Nathan

It's been a while
since we last spoke,
can't believe your back again,
I missed you so.
I never forgot who you were.

I thought of you,
all this time,
little things would
make me laugh
and remember the
many late night conversations we had.


I thought that was it,
I thought that was the end,
you left for so long
never online,
I knew you had found love,
which I was happy about,
but
deep down it hurt so much.

I cried sometimes,
when I looked at your picture,
I knew you lived far,
I knew it was pointless,
but I still kept those feelings for you,
I never let them go.

I still remember
all the promises we made,
all the things we talked about.
I still have all of your letters,
I'll never throw them away.
I'll never throw you away.

I thought we grew apart,
like every one I love in my life.
I thought you left me.
I was scared, I was sad,
I didn't want to believe it.
I didn't want it to be true.
but
your back now.

Things are different now,
we are both older,
more mature and wise.
We have been through things
that have changed us,
but
not the way we feel for each other...

It confuses me,
I loved you so long ago,
I thought I no longer did,
it hurt so much when you left,
I guess I tucked it away,
and pretended to forget it.

But this feel wrong,
your heart is broken,
and I am in love.
Perhaps this is just confusion,
perhaps your heat is confused,
with no one left to love it.
Perhaps it just needs a reason to love.
We should wait, until it heals.

This feels wrong,
I thought I found love.
How can I feel the same for two people?
Is this right?
How is this possible?

It's been so long,
and you've changed so much,
your voice is much deeper now.
You still make me laugh,
we still talk for hours.

I am confused..
I don't know what to do...
I don't know what to say...
all I know
is I still feel the same way...

Morgan.E.Doowrah
©2008